My last blog was posted back in March. As many of you know who had been following me, I felt a prompting from the Lord asking me to “step away from the blog.” So I obeyed. Now I’m feeling led back to it, to open my heart again to share His heart with you.
There are many things going on in my life. Some of you know the ministry my husband and I are collaborating on as you’ve been following along on my facebook page. We’re still working on developing a more professional website for that, but in the meantime, I’m going to get used to writing again. (If you’re interested in hearing a sample of what we’ve been working on, you’ll find a download link at the bottom of this blog.)
Back in July, I decided to join an online bible study group, What Happens When Women Say Yes to God. I joined mainly because after giving up my writing, I became confused and frustrated. I wondered if I had actually heard God or if I had been deviously deceived.
Last week was the first week of the study and I felt compelled to get back to blogging with the blog hop the study offered, but instead I resisted the calling and kept quiet. This week…not so much!
Before I tell you how my “So What!” moment became a, “SAY WHAT!?” moment, let me give you a very brief background of what God had me do.
Our neighborhood is getting progressively worse. The home my mom had transferred over to us in her will was not upheld by the bank, so we have been paying into this house for over four years for nothing! After the bank told us that we would basically have to get a “new” loan for the house, we decided that we’d much rather get a loan for a home we love, in a neighborhood that’s safe.
Needless to say, we have run into countless obstacles trying to get a loan after we found the home we absolutely fell in love with. I felt God nudge me to make an offer to the owner for a land contract or a rent-to-own option, since it’s been sitting empty on the market for over two years! The owner took his sweet time responding, but in the meantime, God kept telling me to do very specific things.
Last Saturday He had us drive around the neighborhood and in the alley behind the home as we prayed. Then on Sunday, God had us do something terribly embarrassing: As a family, we went back to the house, joined hands, and walked around the home seven times praying specific scriptures. This was NOT a “name it and claim it” activity. We were simply seeking God’s perfect will, believing we were led to do this. (We honestly believe this house is meant for us!)
During our week long waiting period, God kept reminding me about Moses vs. Pharaoh, which was not an immediate positive response. It took a great deal of time…and ENERGY by God for Pharaoh to let “His people go.”
On Monday I received the bad news: the owner wasn’t interested in our offers and said that he’d rather have a “clean sale.” While I was instantly heartbroken, I felt God tell me that this was not the end of the story and not to give up hope. But I didn’t want to keep hoping. I’m not very good at it, and my track record has proven that hope doesn’t fit in my life story.
So after watching Wednesday’s (Sept. 14) study video, I was virtually slapped across the face as Nicki talked about, “so what vs. say what.” And then it dawned on me…
SO WHAT if we didn’t get the house! Yes, we are extremely disappointed and heartbroken, but we honored God with all our heart, mind and strength! I sought Him and put all my faith in Him. I believed God asked me to do all that we did. And that’s how it became a…
SAY WHAT moment:
- I listened
- I obeyed
- I trusted
Israel was disappointed and felt that Moses and “his God” were only making matters worse for them, but the final outcome was absolute freedom and victory! It took time, and it took countless loving opportunities by God to reveal Himself to His people again. Through it all, God received the glory and honor He deserved.
I am disappointed, but I will not become discouraged.
I am sad, but not broken.
I refuse to let this make me feel hopeless.
And if in the end we still don’t get that house, so what! I know that I honored God with my whole heart, mind and strength.
“When they witnessed [God’s] incredible power…they trusted in Him” (Exodus 14:31).
“You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.” Jeremiah 29:13
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