NOTE TO SELF: I don’t feel that many of us understand what this scripture means, because if we did, we’d take it much more seriously.
When I was a child, between 5-10, my faith in God was utterly solid. NOTHING that happened to me triggered me to doubt Him. Nothing! My faith could not be shaken. Even in the darkest of nights when I would be woken up to my first step-father beating my mother senseless and destroying our home. Even when my father would say horrible things about my mother in hopes of me turning against her. Or when I spent nights fearfully away from home to spend the weekend with my father and his girlfriend, who both were strangers in my eyes. None of that changed my mind about how I saw Christ.
I struggle with this scripture now, because as an adult nearly everything makes my faith shaky. It doesn’t take much to convince me to stop praying, or hoping, or believing. And every single time I allow those feelings to creep in, the harder it is to get back on board with God. As a child, we don’t question it. We just…go with it.
We’ll never see the kingdom of Heaven if we don’t start believing in God like a child does. Why do they believe so fiercely? Scriptures in Romans 1 and 2 explains a lot:
For that which is known about God is evident to them and made plain in their inner consciousness, because God [Himself] has shown it to them. For ever since the creation of the world His invisible nature and attributes, that is, His eternal power and divinity, have been made intelligible and clearly discernible in and through the things that have been made (His handiworks). So [men] are without excuse [altogether without any defense or justification]…I’ve said this a thousand times: We are all born with God’s DNA. We were born “knowing” Him. And as children, it’s natural to us. Our world seems safe, regardless of what’s going on around us, because we “see” God everywhere and in everything. I even believe that before the age of 5 we are able to literally “see” God and/or angels. And we can continue seeing them if we are not stifled by the adults in our life, disqualifying it with their own doubts.
They show that the essential requirements of the Law are written in their hearts and are operating there, with which their consciences (sense of right and wrong) also bear witness; and their [moral] decisions (their arguments of reason, their condemning or approving thoughts) will accuse or perhaps defend and excuse [them]. (Romans 1:18-19; 2:15 AMP)
As we get older, our eyes change. Our vision is blurred. Our hearts are burdened. And we no longer “trust” what we know. We instead find ways to discredit our reality. And that will always make it difficult to be like little children again. But Christ commands us to. Our eternity depends on it!
PRAYER: O God, we beg of You today to restore our eyesight. Help us to see You as we did when we were children; help us to believe with childlike innocence again. Being an adult is so incredibly painful, but Lord, You heal our inner wounds. You make us whole. Renew our faith and redeem our childhood. Bring us back into that place where we are willing and able to see You everywhere, and in everything! Amen.
JOURNAL: Write about your childhood faith. How does it differ from your faith today? Explain how you need to readjust your faith back to that childlike faith.