Scriptures to reflect upon for Wisdom Wednesday: Genesis 18:12 (The Message)
Sarah laughed within herself, “An old woman like me? Get pregnant? With this old man of a husband?”
Romans 4:15 (The Message)
But if there is…simply a promise—and God’s promise at that—you can’t break it.
Sarah laughed. Not out loud, but within herself. She questioned the very promise that God spoke into her life and even laughed at God for such a ridiculous notion. She asked a series of honest, real, sincere questions. In the natural, it was highly unlikely such a lofty promise could or would ever be fulfilled.
I am painstakingly waiting on a promise. When you wait and wait on a promise, with no promised timelines, it’s hard not to begin reviewing all the natural ways the promise can’t come to pass.
For two days straight, my husband and I have been racking our brains trying to figure out how to “fix” this problem because we don’t see a “promise” in sight anymore. Every time we think God is answering, we quickly discover it was false hope. I stood firm on God’s promise from the start, but now I’m beginning to feel so many things: fear, doubt, frustration, anger, and even jealousy.
Several months ago I sent a link to my blog for consideration for publication. I felt God told me months ago that they were “reviewing” my blog, making sure of my dedication, and would soon make me an offer. Quite honestly, I nearly just deleted this statement because it sounds utterly ridiculous, doesn’t it? I believed it, though. Well, now I’m not so sure. Now I’m beginning to wonder if the promises I hear are from God or are merely my own internal desires.
Like Sarah, I laugh within myself, asking endless questions on how that promise could ever happen. But I quickly convince myself that there are many people, women in particular, who have been “noticed” through their blogs. They have been given book deals, TV shows, and speaking engagements. So why is it so hard for me to believe that God will do it for me? Because I’m living and thinking in the natural…shame on me.
NOTE TO SELF: All the questions, all the doubt, all the pain I feel won’t break God’s promise. His Word says so…
When I first started this blog, I told you that this was quite literally a Note to Self for me because I need to be reminded, just like everyone else, of God’s promises. I need to be reminded of God’s love and mercy. Some days I’m in desperate need.